Adam and Steve

 In Genesis Chapter 19, we are told that because two men (angelic beings) were seen going into Lot's house, both the young and old men of Sodom surrounded his house and said to him "Where are the men who came to you tonight? Bring them out to us, so that we may know them" ("know them" means sex). Lot refused and instead offered his two virgin daughters to this group of deranged and possibly possessed people. The mob refused his offer and threatened to do worse to Lot than they would have done his guests and proceeded to break the door. Lot's angelic guests rescued him and struck the men with blindness. God had promised Abraham that he would spare the city if even 10 righteous men were found in it. But of course there were no such men. And as Lot and his family fled Sodom and Gomorrah, the Lord destroyed the city with Fire and Brimstone.

In the same book of Genesis, God sees the wickedness and immorality of man and is grieved by his creation, resolving to send a great flood to cleanse the earth. God asks Noah to build an ark to save himself, his family and the world's animals from worldwide deluge of the great flood. Of course people made fun of Noah as he built the ark. After the ark was safely built and with Noah and Co on board, the doors were sealed and that's when the rains came. Its written that in the seventh month, the rain was restrained and the ark rested on the mountains of Ararat. God established his covenant with Noah, his sons and with all living things by placing a rainbow in the clouds. The rainbow is a reminder to mankind that God will never destroy the world with flood again.

In both scenarios, man is destroyed by the creator for "SIN". In the former it was for homosexuality and in the latter it was immorality-which covers an array of sins. In truth, there are different examples in the bible where man has been punished for one sin or another. Remember when the Israelites whilst in the wilderness annoyed God and he sent poisonous snakes to afflict them. A lot of people died whilst others were gravely injured. Not to forget the case of Ananias and his wife Sapphira who were struck down dead by God after they lied about profits they made from the sale of their land. Check this: 'for LYING'.

Recently the internet and the nation has run amok with the Senate's stand on Homosexuality and all of a sudden everyone is a righteous muthafucker. Tweeting and chatting absolute nonsense and trying to impress their followers, get others to laugh or earn some yellow bars like their very lives depended on it. Its amazing how hypocritical a lot of us can be about certain issues. 

Being a homosexual does not make one lesser than the rest of us. Its a sin-agreed- same as fornication (which by the way 80% of you reading this blog practice) is a sin, just as adultery, cheating, lying, stealing and even sodomy/anal sex between a guy and a chick is a sin. Do you get it now-a goddamn sin yo. This means that unless you repent of sin, its the same hell fire everyone of those other sinners are going to.

Its not okay for you to make fun of gay people and castigate them because you've never had a loved one, a friend or a family member who was gay. Do you really think they do not feel victimised and discriminated against enough?  Or would you rather i give a list of people who have committed suicide just because they found out that they were gay, coupled with the grief and ostracism the society would subject them to. From Stuart Walker, 28, who was beaten and burned alive after being tied to a lamppost and left there because he was gay to Justin Fashanu (John Fashanu's brother) who committed suicide after being accused of sexual assault against a 17year old as rumours circulated heavily that warrants had been issued for his arrest. His suicide note read " I realised that i had already been presumed guilty. I do not want to give any more embarrassment to my friends and family". It was later found out that there in fact was no warrant out for his arrest. He was the first black footballer to command a One Million pound transfer fee.

Last night as i sat in my room with two of my good friends talking about random stuff, this issue of homosexuality reared its twelve heads. I say twelve heads because everyone's opinion differs from that of the next person. The guy believes that homosexuals should be killed. He says that God gave man the brain to decipher between good and bad. He went on to say that God created Adam + Eve, not Adam + Steve, and that if it was God's desire that man should kpox another man, he would have made a lesser being who looked female. I was astonished. I usually agree with him on certain issues, the death penalty?!?! Are you kidding me? Kill a person just because they would rather mate with members of their own sex? Not because he assassinated a political leader, or was a pedophile, or raped and murdered a whole family of women, or participated in a failed coup. Kill him just for his sexual orientation? That i did not get.

Please, please, please, please, please, in all that we do on this earth as human beings, we should always be our brothers' keepers whilst trying not to judge our neighbour. There are so many psychological traumas that gay people already face. Its much deeper than the stuff you read on the papers or that you see on television. There are loads of people who practice anal-fucking-sex and still open their mouths to crucify gay people. Its almost laughable. Its none of your business. Think of how to better your own life and make heaven. All sin is sin as far as I'm concerned. So before you go running to that police station to report your neighbour who is/you think is homosexual, with the aim of getting the Twenty Thousand Naira reward, just remember this: They don't make air conditioned rooms in hell.
 

Rule Book of Bollocks

What a bunch of absolute fuckery listening to people debate and whine about dating a chic who has a history string of 7-10 guys below the belt. I mean, is that what the problem is with Nigeria today? Guys paying too much attention to womenfolk's vagina and judging her by statistics? So if she dated 10 guys in 10 years and slept with all ten that makes her whore? Mothers telling their daughters bullcrap like "I was a virgin when i married your dad" is bollocks number two after "I always came first in school" in the rule book of bollocks our parent's say.

Who died and made you judge over Israel? How dare you decide what to tell a woman based on the people she's been with. What do you know of her life, her struggles, her pains, her weaknesses, the circumstances that drove her to do the things she did? A woman sleeps for money-its an issue. She sleeps for fun-its wahala. She kpoxes her man-its wahala. What the hell is wrong! You quote the bible and lay emphasis on the verses that state a woman should be virtuous. Didn't your bible tell you that virginity is not a virtue? (A virtuous woman is explained in Proverbs 31). Are you telling me that a virgin who has committed patricide, murder, sodomy or has stolen from the church, her company and oppressed those beneath her is virtuous all because her hymen is intact? Get thee behind me satan. 

I suppose when you asked your girlfriend how many guys she had been with, she said you were the second right? In your mind you've snagged one of the good ones shei? Lets think about this for a moment- you date a girl who has just slept with two guys, but has no job, is lousy in public, can't stand your family and is rude to all your friends or on the other side, she's had seven lovers, is a great cook, has a great job, is church going, and an introvert-which of them would you pick. Yes, you have to choose one, you can't have it all.

At the end of the day, sex doesn't last forever. When we are old, and our bones are too weak to support us, and we begin to lose our ability to hold urine or hold in fart, what happens next? We obviously cannot have sex. Is it gonna matter then if your wife slept with 10 men? If you guys are not friends, or if you do not get with someone who you find attractive spiritually, mentally, academically, socially and physically then you're gonna grow old to be a miserable excuse of a human being.

Every woman's body is hers to do with as they so please. I'm not saying you should go all domitilla on yours but didn't Martin Luther King say we should be judged by the content of our character? A woman should never be fucking judged by the amount of guys she's slept with. Its a fucking ridiculous mentality and O kod belso to all the guys who think otherwise. For the ladies who go around running their mouths and stabbing other girls in the back. Keep doing what you're doing because that's the highest level you'll ever get to in life. You  think you're Miss goody-2-shoes because no one knows about the dragon size skeletons in your closest. If you've really only slept with two guys i'm really happy for you.  It can only be one of three things: You're just into your second relationship, You're a lesbian, or you're a really principled person. Either way, let that decision be yours and not reflect on others. I'm really pleased for you either way.

I had this acquaintance who went on and on and on about how her friends were sluts and how she couldn't stand aristo girls/girls who dated married men and how they were all going to hell. She would give speeches about how her mom taught her better and all that. They are your friends, why can't you talk to them? Why badmouth them to me?  Do you know how annoying it is to listen to such holier than thou people? Yesterday i just got fed up and said to her, "Your mom is a freaking third wife, how the hell do you think she got there?" I'm against ladies dating married men, it is so wrong on many different levels. But if i had a friend doing such, you can be sure i'd give them a piece of my mind-not ramble about it to some acquaintance. 

All i'm saying is that there are more important things in life. There are women getting raped and assaulted everyday, Men dying at war, Children being sold into all sorts of slavery, malnourished, dying of diseases and starvation, Hurricanes, famines, wild fires, tsunamis, earthquakes, poverty, world hunger, joblessness, Ozone layer falling apart and in Nigeria boko haram and what not. What have you done to help your neighbour who is destitute or a stranger in need? When last did you visit an Orphanage or donate to your local church or mosque? There are more pressing issues in this life than sitting on your butts wondering if or why the chic you're with has slept with over seven guys. Its not that serious-yet.

What Women Want....

"Women have been trained to speak softly and carry a lipstick...Those days are over"

WWW are the three words guaranteed to frighten any man alive-or at least according to the men folk. Men act as confused as a bunch of blind lesbians in a fish shop when it comes to understanding what makes the average woman tick. For ladies all we had to use were our instincts, intuition and a little bit of detective work when it came to men. I agree my Father told me about the birds and the bees but i hate to think it was all lies because I went steady with a woodpecker for three years. He never told me about woodpeckers. But i figure the same way all guys cannot be said to be the same, is the same way guys must understand that "All women DO NOT want the same thing".

An aristo chic would tell you she wants a wealthy guy, hell most chics would say the same thing. But there are those who care about the more mundane things in a relationship as opposed to wham bam thank you maam. Sometimes i feel the reproduction of man is a great marvel and mystery. Had God consulted me in the matter, I should have advised him to continue the generation of the species by fashioning them out of clay.

My name is Phury Mackeltar and these are the things i want in a man. Understand that this is merely a wish list and may differ a little from reality.

Sensitivity: A man has to be attuned to me in a way. I said on twitter some days ago that the best aphrodisiacs for women are words. Words lead to every thing-forgiveness, sex, relationships, hatred etc. I need to know that when I'm sick, irritated, confused, sad, happy, dejected or even having a bout of low self esteem, he would understand my plight. He should know what to say and when to say nothing but just be there for me. This falls under being romantic too.

Confidence: Men have called me a bitch, a man-hater, a feminazi and all that bollocks...but in my mind it always translates to "You don't need me to validate your existence, and that scares me". I can't stand a man who appears intimidated by me. There is nothing sexy about that and I will only just resent you. Seize me by my horns and kiss me if you want to. If i slap you, that basically tells you not to try it next time. But what if i don't?

Honesty: I tell white lies sometimes but its all in good faith.I like to shock people as much as i can and once that aim is achieved i go on to tell you it was a joke. If you met a girl you wanted to have a casual relationship with, just come right out and tell her that instead of making promises you can't keep. You know the adage about a woman scorned yeah? Believe me, there's a reason its called 'girls gone wild' and not 'women gone wild'. When girl's go wild they show their breasts. When women go wild they kill men or drown your new girlfriends in a bath tub of urine and puke. All women do this right? No? Shit!!!

Players: I cannot fucking stand players. I've had to tell girls off on certain occasions. Your jerk of a boyfriend is like a plate of rotten beans in the fridge. You don't keep going back and tasting the beans to see if its better; why do you think that if you gave him enough chances, he'll magically become a nice guy. If you are a player and reading this, revert to the above paragraph on honesty.

Intelligence: Its been said that once a woman passes a certain point in intelligence, it is almost impossible to get a husband;she simple cannot go on listening [to men] without snickering. I want someone i can carry interesting and intellectual conversations with. My date last night was so annoying. And oh!the painful attempts at wit. Clearly this guy thought he was hot shit on a stick with rice. I do agree with the shit part,though,i definitely have my suspicions about that stick. Do not tell me I'm so tall, or sexy or have niceteeth. That is not intelligent. Especially the part about my teeth.

Brave: People are wrong. The size of a man's penis is unimportant. What matters is how big his balls are. Whilst i don't want someone prone to displays of public nuisance, i would sleep better at night knowing that my man would break a jaw to keep me safe.

Commitment and Friendship: I know I'm commitment phobic but maybe that's because i haven't met the right guy yet. But when i do, I'd like for him to be committed to me.I think men are more in touch with the realities of commitment, and that's why they avoid making them. We women on the other hand candy-coat the reality of dating. Its always important to become friends with a chic who you like without telling her you like her. That way you get to know the real her.

Sex: Need i say more? You're either good or willing to learn. Either of the two works for me, but if after six tries you still ejaculate after ten seconds, then we have to call Houston. After sex when I'm not satisfied, and he lays there grinning like he just kissed Irina Shayk, I feel like pouring hot wax on his penis. Hahahaha. I jest of course:premature ejaculation isn't a laughing matter for anyone, except for your friends when you tell them about it on the phone the next morning. I know someone's marriage who ended because the main event was invariably over before he got his shoes off.

Look Good: No beer bellies or teeth plaques from too much smoking. This is why women have more opportunities than men to get laid. I mean, have you LOOKED at the guys complaining that they can't get any? They have bad haircuts, no concept of how to dress, don't shave their armpits or wear any underwear. Then some tuck their shirts into pants so that we can see their beer bellies hanging over their belts. Ovoko!!! And they try the LAMEST lines on women who look like they just stepped off the fashion pages of vogue. Now if you were a wealthy SOB, all that may work for you-But if all we are talking about is sex here, and raw sexual extraction. Let's face it, the bulk of the male race is damned ugly. You want to get laid or need that hot chic with the toned body? Try looking HALF as good as the women you drool over.

God Fearing: That is all. No need for explanations. This simply means you can't initiate weird things or illuminate.

I've said it before, there are lots of single women in the world that have yet to spontaneously combust due to lack of the presence of the penis. So if as a guy after reading this you find it hard to understand WWW, then i really don't care anymore. Plus now i don't even care if you're angry or frustrated because someone [me] changed the rules while you weren't looking and forgot to send a damned memo. Not all women want the same thing. Just concentrate on what the one you're with or want to be with wants. Get used to it,guys. Or get a cat.

Case of the Ex

I broke up with my last boyfriend for one simple reason-He slept with his ex while we were dating. As crazy as it may sound, this happens to a lot of people. The forbidden Okafor's Law, always rearing its head making people feel that kpoxing their ex really doesn't matter as they already kpoxed before. I have no problem with people who do this-as long as you are not in a relationship at the time.

No one ever stops for one second in their selfish, lust filled haze to think about the other person. Hello!!! the guy/girl that your ex is currently dating. You know, that person he calls every night after he's fucked you to brazil and back, the same one he goes to the cinema with, travels with, the same one his family and friends know, yes-that same one he's blown you six degrees to the north off for. There is a reason this person is your ex. The stupidest things that we chics do is believe that great sex means that the guy is in love with us. He kpoxes you so good, you fail to notice that you broke up for a reason. Why oh why do the ex-es keep coming back like zombies?

 Don't you just hate it when you spend a night at your man's house and past midnight his phone rings. Its the ex, crying that she misses her dad (who by the way died when she was 3 months old) and how she's alone and does he have time to talk? He looks over at you as if to say 'I'm sorry but i have to take this'. You lie there thinking 'WTF does she want at 1:30am in the morning? If you don't drop that phone it would be your funeral she will be attending tomorrow'. But you don't want to be the mad, over possessive, jealous, control freak of a girlfriend, so you swallow your objections and smile. He takes his call and you fume inside.

This trend continues and one day he's comforting her personally on a bed or she's the one doing the comforting after a huge fight between you and him. He gets up and tells her it was a mistake and that he loves you. The damage has been done though. He goes home and calls you, tells you he misses you and has been home all day with a fever. You go to see him and stay the night. The ex calls again that night and by now you're suspecting something. He gets up to leave the room this time and gives you the 'i have to take this call look' again, only this time you grab the phone and the following ensures:

You: Hello, who's this?

She: Erm... is this bloopah's phone?

You: Yeah...and you are

She: Can i speak to him?

You: It depends....about what?

She: Are you for real? please give the phone to the owner

You: Right now, i am the owner. You had your chance and you fucked it up. Look for someone else to tell your tales of woe to because from now on, we aren't buying your shit.

 Or maybe a different Scenario.....

 

You: Don't you have a damn watch? I've had enough of your bullshit stories and pitiful excuses to call at 2am in the morning. If you're so lonely go and hug a transformer and end your miserable existence. He is with me now. Click!!!

Oh!! So many scenarios played out in my head whenever he answered her calls. Not once did i say "don't". Would it have made any difference? Should i have answered and told her to back off or should i have told him to back off? Of course i told him i was uncomfortable with the calls but did that stop him from sleeping with her? Not at all. We all have different ways of reacting to situations in our lives. I'm naturally not a very patient person but in relationships i try my best to be. Cheating on the other hand is something i can never ever condone. It just consumes the patient I've tried so desperately to hold on to. People say he's a guy, cheating is what they do. Booshit-yes-not bullshit. I bet none of those people actually know that women are more likely to cheat---some of us just choose not to. Or you think we  don't have that ex who was actually better in bed than you? Negro please.

As i write this, I'm reminded of Elizabeth Taylor. I loved that woman but the whole she and Richard Burton's crap sent me into a frenzy. Yes they loved each other so much they married and divorced twice. This woman kept a letter from Burton on her bedside table for 27years and she had the freaking letter put in her coffin. 27 years! A letter from your ex husband? Are you insane? It made me feel sorry for Sally Hay. Oh! you don't know her? She was Burton's last wife, the one he lived with until his death. But of course the press rushed to interview Elizabeth even though they had been apart for years. When Elizabeth expressed a wish to be buried alongside her ex-husband, Sally had to buy the burial plot next to him.

For fucksake, someone should have told Elizabeth: Get a grip on your fucking life, he's maried to someone else and has been for years. Move the fuck on. Gosh!!!! I should have said that to my own ex-boyfriends ex. What a bloody joke....and yet people can't understand why i deliberately choose to remain single. Ex girlfriends are like a really bad case of herpes-you know they are there and they never go away.


PS: A friend's mother has been diagnosed with stageIII breast cancer. She needs $60,000 for the operation to remove her left breast. I lost my dad to cancer so i know how this must hurt for this family. Please visit www.wepay.com/donate/92676 to read more and to donate any amount possible. Every little will help. Thank you.

Lifestlyes of the rich and famous

When my father was alive, I thought he was Rich. After his death, I found out he was wealthy. Then i went through the Forbes list of Wealthiest people in the world and it clicked that he was indeed poor. I recall Brandon Davis attack on Lindsay Lohan. His exact words where "She has the stinkiest, sweatiest, orange vagina anyone has ever seen, she wants me to see it but it shits out freckles, and smells like diarrhea. I think she's worth about Seven Million [dollars], which means she's really poor. It's disgusting. She lives in a motel in new york. She is a fire crotch with a clitoris that is seven feet long.

Seven Million dollars???? And she's poor? It got me thinking of the kind of wedding and life style i would lead if money was not an issue. So, i did a little research. Before you continue, be warned that the following statistics may lead to permanent depression amounting to a very lengthy stay in yaba left.

10. Donald Trump and Melanie Knauss

I recall an interview Melanie gave where she spoke about the early stages of her relationship with Trump. He was on the phone with a friend of his who asked if she had cellulite. Trumps reply was "Cellulite? She doesn't know the meaning of the word". They wed on January 22 2005. The cake (Grand Mariner) weighed 200lbs and the brides dress alone cost $200,000 with a 13 foot train, 1500 Rhinestones and pearls all weighing 60lbs. Tony Bennett and Billy Joel entertained guests which included Bill and Hillary Clinton, Shaq, Rudy Giulaini and Katie Couric. Total cost of the wedding was $1,000,000,000 (One Million Dollars)

9. Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes

I love Tom Cruise but i'm not a fan of Scientology. When these two got together i was worried for katie. Anyways, they got married November 18 2006 in Italy at the 15th century Odescalchi Castle. The bridal party attire was designed by Georgio Armani whilst Andrea Bocelli performed at the ceremony. Total cost was $2,000,000,000 (Two Million Dollars)

8. Arun Nayar and Elizabeth Hurley

I love this couple. They wed on the Wednesday 2nd March 2007 in an eight day celebration spanning Europe and Asia. These included being married in Sudeley Castle in Gloucestshire, Britain, the Umaid Bhawan Palace, Jodphur India. Elizabeth was given away by Sir Elton John. Other guest included Elle Macpherson, Donatella Versace and Evelyn Lauder. Total cost was $2,500,000 (Two Million, Five Hundred Thousand Dollars) and the wedding officially broke up early this year.

7. Paul McCartney and Heather Mills 

I always thought they made an odd couple but i was so thrilled to see him happy after losing his wife to cancer. They were married on the 11th of June 2002 in Glaslough England in a ceremony witnessed by 300 guests. This was followed by fireworks, a pageant and a mad feast. Their wedding night was spent on a $20million yacht. The total cost of the wedding was $3Million, whilst their divorce cost even more at $50Million.

6. Liza Minelli and David Guest

These two remind me of the Adam's family-especially David. Married on March 16th 2002 at Manhattan's Collegiate church. Over 850 guests including Elizabeth Taylor, Michael Jackson and Natalie Cole who sang unforgettable were in attendance. The 12 tier cake was 6ft tall and cost $40k, whilst more than $70k was spent on flowers alone. Total cost of the wedding was $3.5Million. Alas, the wedding didn't last more than a year and they divorced in 2003.

5. Delphine Arnault and Allessandro Vallarino Gancia

Delphine, the daughter of French business man Bernard Arnault married Allessandro Gancia of the Gancia wine dynasty on September 24 2005 at the Roman Catholic Cathédrale Saint-Jean-Baptiste de Bazas in Gironde. The reception was held in a transparent tent and winery was provided by Arnault's LVMH known for its $100k bottles of wine. Her gown was designed by John Galliano for Christian Dior and took 1,300hours to make. The reception took place at Château d'Yquem, in Bordeaux. The venue was decorated with 5000 white roses. Guests included Elizabeth Hurley, John Galliano, Bernadette Chirac,former French first lady, Karl Lagerfield, Glenda Bailey manager of Harper's Bazaar. The current French president Nicolas Sarkozy joined them for dinner in the castle of Yquem. The total cost of the wedding was over $7Million.

4. Wayne Rooney and Collen Mclaughlin

These two wed in Portofino Italy on the 12th June 2008. The wedding turned into a four day party on a yacht with 64 guests flown in on five private jets. The wedding was simple in that they served pizza at the reception but all other things like the bride's dress by Marchesa cost $3Million added up. Total cost of the wedding was $15Million, $5Million of which they got back through a deal with OK Magazine, giving them exclusive rights to cover the wedding.

3. Vikram Chatwal and Priya Sachdev

Son of New York Hotelier married actress Priya in February 18 2006 in a 10 day celebration across Mumbai, Udaipur and Delhi. 600 guests from 26 countries were flown in on private jets. Guests included Bill Clinton, Naomi Campbell and P.diddy. Estimated cost of the wedding was $20Million.

2. Aleksandra Kokotovic and Andrei Melnichenko

 

Whitney Houston and Christina Aguilera were both flown in on private jets to perform as Russian Billionaire Andrei Melnichenko and former Miss Yugoslavia Aleksandra wed. They were paid a staggering sum of $3.6Million each. Julio and Enrique Iglesias also performed. The affair was so over the top that rumours circulated that Melnichenko had a russian chapel dismantled, shipped and rebuilt in France. 

 

1. Seemanto & Chandni AND Sushanto & Richa

Both weddings cost $128Million. The father os the grooms is Industrialist Subrata Roy of Sahara. The weddings both took place on the 14th of February 2004 in India. There were 10,000 guests. 

As part of the festivities more than 40,000 beggars were distributed edibles across the country. The dinner had 110 types of dishes that included Indian, Mexican, Italian, Mongolian, Lebanese, Chinese, and American. 121 musicians from the British Symphony Orchestra performed across 20 Hindi overlay and patriotic songs 

 Phew!!!!!! My top two favourites are

2. Vanisha Mittal and Amit Bhatia

 The world's fifth richest man, Indian steel Magnate Lakshmi Mittal gave out his daughter to investment banker Amit Bhatia. The family sent out 20-page invitations in silver boxes. Mittal put up 1000 guests in a five star Paris hotel for the five day affairs. One night there was a party at Versailles, another at a wooden castle temporarily erected for this wedding in Parc de Saint-Cloud. The wedding itself took place at Vaux Le Vicomte, a 17th century chateau in france on November 18 2004. There was also 100 different dishes prepared by a top Calcutta chef and a wine tab of $1.5Million. The total cost of the wedding was $60Million and has been honoured by Forbes as one of the most expensive weddings ever recorded. Vanisha is the No1 Billionaire Heiress in the world according to Forbes Magazine.

1. Sheikh Mohammed Bin Rashid Al Maktoum and Princess Salama

This wedding has been mentioned in the Guinness Book of World Records as the most expensive wedding ever recorded. It took place in 1981 and cost $44.5 Million ($100Million in today's dollars). An amphitheater was built specifically for the 7 day event and was large enough to accommodate their 20,000 guests. 50 Arab and African song-and-dance troupes paraded before the princes, emirs, sheiks and ambassadors who had been flown in on 34 private jets. One of the performer’s who sang a song that was specially written for the couple was awarded a bright red 1981 Mercedes. Bride Salama followed a strict Bedouin tradition and spent the duration of her week long wedding celebration, cloistered in her room.

*sigh*....I don't know what to do with my life again. I'm so confused with everything i have now.